anticekta.ru — история возникновения "тренингов". В букмарки, потом ознакомлюсь.
(Когда-то давно захотел такую штуку, чтобы можно было в темноте читать :) Запишу здесь, чтобы наконец о ней забыть)
Снег был мягкий, лопата — снеговая. По сравнению с тем, как мы когда-то на уроках физкультуры копали лёд штыковыми лопатами — сплошное удовольствие, а не труд.
Похоже, пора возвращаться на более другую музыку, пока что я всё еще могу отключить мозг и не воспринимать слов, но в будущем тексты вроде
GOOD BYE BLUE EYES
YOU WILL NOT SUFFER AGAIN
IN HEAVEN A CHEESE BURGER
IS WAITING FOR YOU
могут съесть мне мозг целиком.
caphgame.sourceforge.net
По геймплею это клон Numpty Physics и Crayon Physics, то есть игра, в которой объекты, нарисованные мышкой, ведут себя в соответствии с законами физики.
Прилагаю скриншот: sourceforge.net ,но в картинках это не покажешь, в это надо поиграть.
Проект довольно молодой и активно развивающийся (последний релиз был 31 декабря). И ему явно не помешали бы помощь художника, дизайнера, и переводчика на английский язык :)
Очень хочу попиарить замечательную open source игру от русскоязычного разработчика — "caph" По геймплею это клон Numpty Physics и Crayon Physics, то есть игра, в которой объекты, нарисованные мышкой, ведут себя в соответствии с законами физики.
Прилагаю скриншот: sourceforge.net ,но в картинках это не покажешь, в это надо поиграть.
Проект довольно молодой и активно развивающийся (последний релиз был 31 декабря). И ему явно не помешали бы помощь художника, дизайнера, и переводчика на английский язык :)
Надо бы начать смотреть скопившееся за последние месяцы, пока время на безделье есть.
Все кто еще не считают меня быдлом могут начать это делать сейчас.
Всем спокойной ночи, доброго утра, и приятного дня!
futureme.org
Попалось сейчас такое, которое очень точно и красиво описывает ту депрессию, которую я периодически ощущаю. Надеюсь, что у того хорошего человека, который это написал, сейчас всё хорошо.
futureme.org
Lost the ability to be happy
Dear FutureMe,
I realized today that I think I may have lost the ability to be happy. I never even realized that that could happen, but it dawned on me. I have been struggling internally so long to heal, to grow. never showing much of what was on the inside, putting on a brave face. But I truly don't feel like I can ever be happy again. There is nothing to look forward to, I can't think of a single thing that would make me happy.
Yes I know it comes from the inside out, but I can't find it on the inside, though I have tried. I just feel so tired from trying to heal, so tired of feeling this way. I don't know if it is common or not, or if I am just beginning to lose my mind.
I just...I don't know. I felt like I had to put it out there. I've never ever thought I couldn't be happy, just thought it needed some work. But today, I realize that I don't know if I can or will ever get there. I used to have content moments, they don't come anymore. It feels like the harder I try in my life, the more I mess things up.
I have tried to follow my passion, to live my purpose, but when I do, I feel like I am doing ok for a while, even good, but then I feel like I start to screw things up and sometimes I don't know what I did, I just know it all comes crashing down. I feel like I am stuck in a pattern that I can't remedy and if I knew what I do wrong or how to fix it then I could but, I just can't figure it out. I don't think I sabotage myself or my efforts, unless it is subconscious, but then, I just don't know.
Right now I just feel like I could crawl into a cave and never come out and it wouldn't matter, I could just crawl away and cry myself until I died. I just want to give up emotionally and mentally. I am so so tired. I have pulled myself back up so many times, I just don't know if I have the strength to do it yet again. It feels like too much has been piled up on me now. It feels like such a weight on me and I don't have anywhere to turn.
I truly don't know how much longer I can keep fighting for my soul, for this life, it feels like a waste and I want so much to be a force of good, but if I cannot help myself, how can I ever be a force of good for anyone else?
I feel...Just lost, alone and emotionally exhausted.
(written Tue Jan 17th, 2006, delivered to Wed Jan 16th, 2008 )
Читаю сейчас письма в будущее на Попалось сейчас такое, которое очень точно и красиво описывает ту депрессию, которую я периодически ощущаю. Надеюсь, что у того хорошего человека, который это написал, сейчас всё хорошо.
futureme.org
Lost the ability to be happy
Dear FutureMe,
I realized today that I think I may have lost the ability to be happy. I never even realized that that could happen, but it dawned on me. I have been struggling internally so long to heal, to grow. never showing much of what was on the inside, putting on a brave face. But I truly don't feel like I can ever be happy again. There is nothing to look forward to, I can't think of a single thing that would make me happy.
Yes I know it comes from the inside out, but I can't find it on the inside, though I have tried. I just feel so tired from trying to heal, so tired of feeling this way. I don't know if it is common or not, or if I am just beginning to lose my mind.
I just...I don't know. I felt like I had to put it out there. I've never ever thought I couldn't be happy, just thought it needed some work. But today, I realize that I don't know if I can or will ever get there. I used to have content moments, they don't come anymore. It feels like the harder I try in my life, the more I mess things up.
I have tried to follow my passion, to live my purpose, but when I do, I feel like I am doing ok for a while, even good, but then I feel like I start to screw things up and sometimes I don't know what I did, I just know it all comes crashing down. I feel like I am stuck in a pattern that I can't remedy and if I knew what I do wrong or how to fix it then I could but, I just can't figure it out. I don't think I sabotage myself or my efforts, unless it is subconscious, but then, I just don't know.
Right now I just feel like I could crawl into a cave and never come out and it wouldn't matter, I could just crawl away and cry myself until I died. I just want to give up emotionally and mentally. I am so so tired. I have pulled myself back up so many times, I just don't know if I have the strength to do it yet again. It feels like too much has been piled up on me now. It feels like such a weight on me and I don't have anywhere to turn.
I truly don't know how much longer I can keep fighting for my soul, for this life, it feels like a waste and I want so much to be a force of good, but if I cannot help myself, how can I ever be a force of good for anyone else?
I feel...Just lost, alone and emotionally exhausted.
(written Tue Jan 17th, 2006, delivered to Wed Jan 16th, 2008 )